the day...has been a day

its been a greatly boring day! im figuring out that these next few months will either A.) be so amazing and life changing or B.) not go how i picture them at all...yup no plan bs in this ish..if i wanted a plan B i would have been prepared...better prepared that is..so ive listened to music pretty much all day  and baked some cookies..my existence is so amazing it could choke a horse on all the whining i do... soooo song to explain the mood...


                         much love
                                   pissy patty

ughhh need some quality sleep

random thought as i TRIED to doze off to sleep. with my gap year decision in full swing i feel like the decision to be in Oregon  or Ohio will shoot me in the face..on one hand i want to be with the guy i adore and love..but part of me says see how long  it will  really last and take the adventure to Oregon...so to follow the adventure or the heart..didn't think id be faced with questions like this so soon.

these songs fit the mood
nostalgic but fierce looking forward to the future

     life throwing me for a loop

Im figuring out the beginning starts here..the decision to go into a gap year is one im no longer battling with. the decision was made a couple hours after the realization that i have no money for college. so my adventure has to start somewhere. so if that means i have to make it count. no doubts no worries just me taking 365 to find myself. i know what i want to do. but i think this will be me figuring me out for a bit. so much has to change. so much needs to happen to take the leap of faith that i have have tried to ignore guess it happens now..i guess this will be one of those blogs ill either give up hope and stop writing or ill find purpose in the days and have no choice but to tell them. lets end these words with two songs

                                               

   me signing off
                                   run-on sentence suzy